I hope you return here to read this reply. I completely agree
with you that our laws need to be reformed. I also am of the 
"conservative" persuation and a marijuana user as well. I do 
have a couple of questions though. For one, how did your church
find out about your marijuana use, and if you are in such dier
straights, how did you afford to buy marijuana? If it came
between my family and marijuana, the marijuana would have to go.
You sound like a very hard worker and someone who is willing 
to do what ever it takes to survive. Have you ever considered 
starting your own business? I have no education, in fact I am a
high school drop out. I have been in business for myself for
15 years now and have had great success. At times I have made 
your annual income in one month and if you are the boss there 
are no urine tests. I bet I could paint houses and make $100,000
a year. I wish you the best and I am sure you will find your way
through this.